Oh man, I hate to feel like what I am feeling like now. Depressed. Yup, I feel depressed. I was ok this morning until I went out of the apartment. Our oldest son, was supposed to go to a birthday party this morning. As I write this post, the party is still going on. He didn't go. All because we were stuck in this stinking Lagos traffic AND we couldn't find our way to the birthday place. Our driver didn't know how to get there either. I was frustrated. I was frustrated with our driver. I was frustrated with the parents' of the boy who is having this party. They were not organised with no directions to their place nothing. I was frustrated with the traffic. I was frustrated with Google map because it couldn't locate the place that I was supposed to go to. I was frustrated with Nigeria. I still am. We were lost for about an hour. At the end of that one hour, he lost all interest in going to his friend's birthday party. I don't blame him. I would be too!!!!! So, in the end, we stopped by KFC (Kentucky Fried Chicken) and got some lunch. I reached home I asked my husband whether it was too early to drink. It was only 12.45pm in the afternoon. So maybe yes!
I am also frustrated to know that two or three of my friends in Lagos that I am close to will soon leave me to "fend" by myself here. It's not that I don't have other friends here but somehow it's not the same with these other group of friends that I am close to. I told myself this is life. This is how it is when you live an expat life. People come and go. I don't want to think about that yet. I tried to keep myself busy here by finding things to do. Going to gatherings, functions, volunteering etc. Now, I don't know if I want to do any of those anymore. I might just decide to stay home, begin my own book club and start reading again. Then, if I stay indoors ALL the time, I'll get even more depressed. I'll be at home with my nanny ALL the time! *Sigh*.
I'm about to finish this blog of mine when I saw one of my good friend in Singapore message me on Facebook. She asked why am I depressed after seeing my post. I burst into tears!!!!!
I've never cried eversince I got to Lagos. NEVER.
Come on, Cape Town. You are not here soon enough!! I want to go on a safari.